I killed your husband

Your husband was strong, but was overcome.
He boasted a heart of gold but now he’s done.
Sinking day by day, he would often pray,
but his soul slipped under my thumb.

He was a lover.
Loved to hold you and whisper in your ear.
Tell you secrets of passions, blushing when you hear.
But now he lives no more.
I drug his body through the door.
Away from you and your family,
I smothered his dreams finally.

He had morals and standards that I squashed.
In his blood, my hands were washed.
It was a long struggle, not an easy win,
but each time he got up, I struck him down again.

I killed your husband starting with deception,
Replacing his insides with ruin and corruption.
Pulled his eyes from his sockets so he was left blinded.
Lobotomized and hypnotized like the walking dead.

It went unnoticed while you watched TV,
I crept into his mind like a disease.
Convinced him of lies and deceit,
Promises of desires and needs.

I killed your husband
as he stood on his feet.
cut off at the knees,
I broke him down. Defeated.

I slipped into his place and destroyed his home,
Waking a path of destruction until everything was gone.
I’m not the same guy you married.
I’m cynical and jaded.

Say goodbye to the reputation and image.
I’ve damaged it all.
Say hello to a new label
One that will bring judgment from all.

I killed your husband, now all that’s left is me.
And now our family is in misery.
I can feel him inside.
But he’s way too deep to be seen.


Not my intention

It’s my fault I know, how the end came about.
But for so long, before there was doubt,
about my actions or infidelity.
There were arguments and punitive activities.

I was never good enough for you,
at least that’s how I feel now.
Too many sorrys and I love yous
that it doesn’t matter now.

Though I only heard those words from your lips once or twice,
It was always my fault when things wouldn’t turn out right.
I did everything for you.
I worked two jobs, went to school, and cooked at night.

I DO know what love is when I’m laying in a pool of my own snot and tears.
Crying to touch my family in the case I’m unable to for years
This is the loneliest I’ve been in my life,
away from my children and my wife.

I’ve missed your breath and touch of your skin,
but I understand why, with me you haven’t been.
Don’t get me wrong I’m not blaming you for this,
I know it’s me that is covered with sin.

I just need you to believe me when I say,
my love for you will last forever and a day.
And I’m truly sorry for the pain I’ve put you though.
Since our world has crashed down, I’ve lost my direction of what to do.

I didn’t want to hurt you or be mean, that was not my intention.