A girl I know

I know this girl, who’s been mistreated, it seems by the world.
Worthless souls have drained her life, and convinced her that it’s their right.

Afraid of the woman she could be, they dig away until they see her,
Broken down, and falling on knees.

Telling her lie after lie, even pretending to cry.
They say whatever it takes, whatever it takes to claim their stake.

Standing on true passion’s shoulders, they regurgitate songs,
A farce in their heart, where no loving lyrics belong.

It’s wrong how they’ve treated you, and abused you,
you deserve more than the excuses they’ve given you.

But I see the strength inside you starting to grow,
each day that passes, continue to know,
there are people who love you and care for you,
people who will be there for you.

You’re a beautiful, independent woman you see,
Don’t just take it from me.
Ask my family, they remember from our history.

Tell yourself these things, and be true to yourself.
All the stress is not good for your health.
Remember the important things in life are not money or wealth,
It’s God’s gift from above, that passion we call love.


Is it better there?

Reaching up and reaching out.
So long, my life has been without
assurance and confidence in what I do is right.
Thoughts divided, opposed in fight.

A distant place, my mind creates.
To keep me safe?
To hide away?

With chains and locks, my daily wear.
Life may be better there, but I don’t care.
If it means I lose you, I’d rather be here.
I’ll stay in the pain because I know it so well

Heart Surgery

I wish I could cut you from my heart.
Just to get rid of every little part.
Tired of feeling this way.
Tired of feeling the pain.

Take the memories,
That have been so dear to me.
I don’t want them anymore,
No longer do they make me feel warm.

The hurt, it takes me,
While I sit here contemplating.
I don’t know what to do,
If I can’t be with you.

Get on with the operation,
Remove the memories and thoughts of our last vacation.
When everything seemed right,
and I could sleep at night.
I want it all gone,
I’m tired of feeling alone.

“Better to have loved and lost”,
is a farce in my book.
My heart is crushed,
just take a look.

It’s true it’s my fault,
the guilt is locked in my vault.
But that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
My broken soul is under duress.

Take the memories of you and me.
When we hugged and kissed on the beach at the sea.
Take them from my body and mind,
Take all traces and leave nothing behind.

Every moment with you,
once loved has now turned blue.
I’ve loved you with all my heart,
and I still do.

But the pain is too much to bear,
I’ve brought it on myself,
but it still seems unfair.

When you are completely gone from my heart,
it won’t feel like it’s being ripped apart.
But there won’t be much of it left,
I may answer the callings of my new friend, death.

Death could be more pleasant than this pain,
my life has passed by like the morning rain.
So take these memories of us.
Take the memories I wear as chains.

But don’t take them just yet,
I don’t want to make another decision that I’ll regret.
Let me hold you once more,
Fictitious moments behind my minds door.

The Other Man

The anger, it flows through my veins.
I just want to stop, this pain.
You twist the knife,
When you’re with my wife.

I want to chew you up and spit you out.
You don’t understand this crossed man.
You’d better start looking for a way out of here.
I hope you have a plan,
Soon you will only have fear.

My blood boils at the thought of it.
And this feeling in my gut, is making me sick.
I want to separate your body from limbs.
What kind of world are you living in?

Pain, fire, my heart and throat are burning.
If you’re hearing these words,
I hope you are learning.
Don’t mess with me son,
Or your sex life could be done.

Don’t you dare touch my kids,
Or I’ll shove my fingers under your eyelids.
I’ll pull till they snap.
It’s a fact you’ll have to watch your back.

Take heed these warnings, and be gone by morning.

New Blog

So I’ve created this blog to post writings of my thoughts.

Pure, raw, emotional scribbles that express how I feel.

Some thoughts may be harsh or intense, but it’s just a reflection of how I am feeling. I may write about actions or feelings I would never act out, but writing them down releases my inner turmoil.

Incredible Love

So, I was thinking about how incredible love is, and how it is able to grow beyond expectations. If the amount of love you’re able to give, depended directly on the size of your heart, then I conclude the size of the heart can be infinitely large.

I believe this to be true from my own experiences with love.
When I began loving my wife, I didn’t stop loving my family.
When I started loving her children, I didn’t love my wife any less.
My heart grew to accommodate the amount of love I was giving.
Then she gave me my first born son. I didn’t love my step children any less.
In fact, the love for my family was reinforced holistically. Then my daughter was born. My wife gave me the most precious gifts I would ever receive by giving me children.
With each addition to my family, I never loved any of them less. My love only grew.

I’ve also found love is powerful. Love is not mutually exclusive with other emotions. I can be upset or disappointed with someone but still love them as much as ever. Love can mend hurts and pains even when it’s difficult to do.
An illustration –
Two of my children, who I love infinitely, get into a fight and hurt each other. I don’t love the instigator any less. If one is completely at fault, I don’t love them any less. And by loving the one at fault, it doesn’t mean I love the hurt child any less.
Because love is not limited, I can give as much love to any one, and not deprive another.
Love knows no bounds, and I believe it is the most powerful force in the universe.

Being a Father

I’m unable to describe the amount of joy my children bring me.
Seeing my kids happy is one of the best feelings I get.
Watching them pretend, makes me proud of their imagination.
Watching them empathize, melts my heart.
Watching them cry, jerks my soul.
Watching them laugh, makes the world seem right.
I don’t need things. I don’t need possessions or riches.
I just need my family.
Before my toddlers were born, I had a discussion with a friend about my wife wanting more children.
I was doubting my ability to raise a baby, and in similar words he said, “you don’t know what you’re capable of until you have kids”.
I didn’t know how right he was.
Now I fear being separated from, and unable to protect them.
As I believe, no one could love them as much as I do.
I would lay my life down in an instant to protect my children.
Thank you God for these blessings.
They are my world.